[personal profile] xungovernablex
most of the time i sit around thinking, "what do i still believe in?"

before continuing, bear in mind that the point of this entry is not to justify why i believe any truths i claim, merely to declare that what i do believe, what i do not, and what remains uncertain to me.

the answer is, remarkably few things, and even fewer individuals or philosophical tenets.

for starters, i do believe in reincarnation. i believe the handful of recollected lives i have remembered and confirmed to the greatest degree one can are legitimate, and that there are others i have not bothered and do not wish to look into.

i believe time is fluid, more like a sprawling ocean than a river. a river implies a direction, a currant, and a structured sense of forward motion. i believe time is vast, sprawling, and cannot be contained. all time exists simultaneously.

because of this, i believe in the multi-verse. i believe that there are multiple realities and parallel universes existing side-by-side. i believe we structure these experiences only to partake in and comprehend them.

this implies, and i do not disagree, that experiences in the multi-verse can leak into another dimension, perhaps in a slightly altered stream of events authored into fiction. honestly though, i feel that of the folks who believe this, the concept is often as flawed and false as in the case of a hypochondriac self-diagnosing illnesses.

i believe that when we die, we become an immensely powerful self-aware energy which can access all or none of the time and space which exists, ebbing and flowing around us.

i believe newer souls are boggled by all of this, this massive revelation, and so go to realms, (rooms, really; made to be simple to as not to overwhelm or intimidate further); structured environments which are neither here nor there, in which they work through whatever they must, progressing their soul's education. old souls are increasingly aware and comfortable with the nature of this perplexing time-space phenomenon, so there is less "jet-lag" upon dying, and more control and creativity when it comes to their experience whilst living "in-between" the realms we would consider to be the "physical."

in reality, i should say that in terms of which world is more "real" or whatever adjective you'd prefer, the only defining factor is in physiological limitations. a lot of this metaphysical business is a work in progress, however; the ideas ever evolving. i will not pretend to have everything regarding individual realms or their functioning principles remotely solved.

i believe the dead can, if they wish, return to the living. they may exist for unknown periods of time anywhere they wish. or they may chose to interact sparsely, and largely intangibly with the living, as guides.

the extent of the clarity and influence of the interaction between the guide and the soul with which they communicate is determined by various enlightened elements regarding both the guide and, shall we say, "living person." many living people are more aware, possessing greater clarity to such spiritual and supernatural phenomena. many may be less "open" but have immensely "powerful" guides. much can alter this relationship.

personally, i view guides as a form of crippling attachment, dependency, or lack of self-confidence. in many cases, communicating with them is, in my opinion, as ultimately pointless or at least, unreliable as evoking the unpredictable favor of a guardian angel, or relying on a prayer.

i doubt there is an overarching plan or sense of purpose, meaning, or structure to existence. people come, and go. all things flow. if there was a purpose, then there would have to be an orchestrator. one to have initiated, to have enacted a beginning for which there to be an end. i believe there is no grand scheme, no omnipotent creator, no beginning, or end. there simply is.

i know that people will take one small piece of something, theorize about it, enlarge it beyond confinement or deduction, and begin to claim truths about it; expanding and spiraling out of control until the lie is so big, that they are suffocating underneath it, unable to trace back to its solid roots for logical, dispassionate, honest and infallible analysis.

in fact, one could claim that this statement which i claim to know is merely another opinion, partially derived from experience and observation, mostly convoluted; manipulated, perhaps subconsciously by, and clouded with emotion.

despite this, i prefer basing my beliefs on circumstantial analysis based on psychological evaluations of human behavior, or sociological environmental stimuli, rather than intangible, ethereal objects shrouded with emotionally charged, defensive rhetoric, delusions and denial, or other-worldy and currently incomprehensible intrigue.

people will exaggerate, building off of small truths, to create large lies, frequently drastically altered from the initial building block. they will weave and spin, relying on (or rather defaulting to) such methods as ad hominem debate or rhetoric to successfully distract or deter opposing arguments as time covers their tracks, until, as with the origins of the christian myth, we are left with nothing more to prove the basis of the follower's belief beyond, "because we have faith." "there as an artifact proving this person existed, therefore all stories related to him are true." so on and so forth.

this applies to every single religion or cult belief which exists, and many other fields as well.

everyone knows their belief to be true. "it is the truest truth and truer than all the rest!" yet, none can trace their truth back to more than an ancient artifact, shrouded by mystery and scarcely interpreted by inarguable scientific research. even much of science is tainted with biased, or the restrictions causes by man-made measurement devices, and limitations.

it puzzles me how otherwise logical and dispassionate, educated and highly analytical - even certifiably ingenious individuals! - who often scoff and marvel pejoratively at individuals who fall into this category, though perhaps less surrounded at base by artifacts of mystery and speculation, instead, of ancient holy writings and scriptures (we are to believe inspired by some deity, though physiologically ascribed by men) or religious figures of authority, fail to see their hypocrisy by the nature of this most pronounced parallel.

i declare my more abstract beliefs as my beliefs, not as universal truths. to me they are real because they are a part of my reality and emotional experience to which i can neither deny nor ignore. but i would also not declare this as the truth to which everyone must subscribe, and belittle those whom do not, because it is not accessible to or relative for all.

more importantly, my supernatural and spiritual experiences have no measurable basis in reality and so should not be imposed upon others; and certainly, not used to bully groups with smaller numbers of followers to whatever purpose and gain.